Getting Serious…and Getting Pony

-rks

So, it’s been a week now since I changed up Storming Dawn and transformed it into -rks. You may have also noticed that I have a new website name too! I was very happy to get this new title. It makes it easy to remember. It’ll be awesome once I actually get myself published.

Before you ask, I’m still working on the new page formats and I haven’t had a chance to get them all fixed up yet. Heck, I’m not even sure what I’ll be doing with all of them. But I do like the new theme. The “Daddy, Author, Gamer, Reader, Dreamer” has a nice ring to it, don’t you think?

I should mention that I haven’t gotten a good night’s sleep in some time. I’m not really sure how long it’s been. It doesn’t help that I may be in what I’ve come to call “The Week of Dreams.” You see, every month or so, I get a week where I seem to have these super-vivid dreams every night. Sometimes is actually multiple dreams each night. You might think this is awesome. It can be cool…but not when I desperately need some serious sleep. Because I wake up more tired than when I lay down. And I rarely get dreams I actually want to remember.

For instance, the dream about our entire freezer being stuffed with frozen Digorno pizzas? Yeah, not exactly inspiring.

Writing

But let’s get down to it. You’re here for the writing. The good news? I finally forced myself to do a “voice edit” of Glimmer of Perspective. I was going for a very particular tone in this story. I don’t usually think too much about tones and voices, since I usually just let that stuff happen naturally, but I knew it was important to make this story work. I like it a lot better now and I feel like I’m close to a finished product.

Yes, I know I only have a few days left until my self-imposed deadline. I’m going to focus on this for the next few days.

Which leads me to my next thing. And this? This is going to be hard.

I’m considering imposing a gaming curfew on myself.

Ugh, I don’t even like writing about it.

You see, I used to take the time to write in the morning before going to work, but that doesn’t work anymore. Caitlyn is always awake now before I leave the house. And she’s sometimes fussy or talking or playing or doing things that would disrupt my concentration. So I can’t do that anymore.

I can’t cut back at work. I already feel like I’m under a whip most days. In fact, I’ve forced myself to spread out my journals to give myself time to actually relax on my breaks instead of working all the time. And the 45 minutes a day 4 days a week during my lunches isn’t cutting it.

So it leaves only one thing. The days I have on my own…I need to start writing again.

I used to have a goal of 1000 words a day. Hell, I used for force myself to do at least a page a day. I haven’t actually written something new since Waterfall a few months ago. And it’s driving me crazy. I need to start writing again!

So this means one of two things: either cut my gaming on my days off to an hour and a half, or force myself to do writing goal before being allowed to game.

In the sense of productivity, I suspect the word count goal will be more effective.

And before you ask, yes I have considered cutting out gaming entirely. However, gaming is one of my favorite past times and an enormous part of my coping mechanism dealing with life in general. I think it would be unwise to remove that.

So, starting in September, I’m going to start a new goal of 1,000 words a day, except for Sunday. 6,000 words a week is good. And I can do that.

I’ll just need you folks to keep me honest. And I meant you human folks. I don’t really care what Google Bots think.

The Conquering Ponies

I’ve had a lot of fun playing Civilization V this week. I downloaded several My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic mods for a game. I’ve really enjoyed the fun Pony artwork, music and leaders. And considering I just whooped Sombra’s tail in a very brief war where I decided to pick out three of his cities and make them mine…ahh…it was good. Hell, Rome tried to take over Cloudsdale right as I was about to start a campaign against a particular city state, only to have the Chinese, Sombra and Nightmare Moon declare war on me in short order.

Pushed back the Chinese to Shanghai. Annihilated the Nightmare Moon forces attacking Ponyville. And defended Cloudsdale without blinking, only to strike back and take two of Rome’s cities. When I had the third, Antium surrounded, Caesar was so desperate he actually gave me Antium to stop me from taking Rome itself.

I allowed it…until Nightmare Moon crossed my borders to go after Rome and I decided to finish Caesar off before Nightmare Moon could get a foothold in my territory.

Sorry, Luna. You’d better be quicker next time.

What? I’m not allowed to conquer nations in real life. Let me do it to pixels. You can’t stop me!

Last Thoughts

This week, I started a new project called “Journey to Equestria: A Retrospective.” It details my flirtations with My Little Pony over the last few years and how the entire family came down with Pony fever. I want to make sure it’s done right, so I’ll probably post that up sometime in the next week or so. It’s going to be a multi part series, which I hope will end with the reasons why I find the show so fun and compelling…and why I think the message it gives is something that cannot be waved away.

But the other thing I found?

“Button’s Adventures.”

This amazing 5 minute short is entirely fan-made and rivals the quality of the actual My Little Pony show. And it’s one of the funniest darn things I’ve ever seen. Since I saw it a few days ago, I’ve probably watched it 20 times, if not more.

Listen, I don’t care if you like My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic or not. Take 5 minutes and WATCH IT. All I’m asking is that you TRY it.

It’s not like I’m asking you to swear allegiance to Equestria or something.

Here’s the show:

JanAnimation‘s work is utterly astounding. I cannot believe the quality of his productions.

The next one is specifically targeted for the people who think the whole My Little Pony thing is a bit…odd.

I would like to mention that you are actually hearing John de Lancie (Q from Star Trek: The Next Generation) and Tara Strong (Twilight Sparkle) singing in this video. It’s sort of a promo for the Brony Documentary John de Lancie produced.

The last one? Because I like it and it’s fun.

Sorry, no ulterior motive here.


Anyway, that’s all for this week folks. I hope you guys and gals are doing great.

Oh, and I’m also trying one more thing. I’m going to force myself to comment on 5 different posts of different people a week. And not just random comments, but something intelligent and insightful. So if you’ve actually reached the bottom of this page, congratulations.

You get a cookie.

It’s in the mail.

Trust me.

 

Good luck and have fun!

-rks

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Rebooting the Dawn

A New Look…and a New Idea

So I’m planning on redoing Storming Dawn. And I think I might drop the Storming Dawn title. I haven’t come up with anything catchy yet, but I’m going to rebrand this more as a writing/personal blog based about my own name. As you can see, I’ve already worked on a new design theme. I’m liking this already.

First of all, you’ve probably already noticed that the links have changed. I’ll be fiddling with this later to perfect this and hopefully it will make more sense. I actually have some really cool ideas that I would like to try, based somewhat off of a few Brony PMVs I’ve seen lately. (That’s Pony Music Video in case you’re curious. Took me forever to figure out what that meant). But that would take far too much time and a whole lot of work. Not to mention learning how to code CSS and other sort of crazy things. So that’s probably not going to happen.

I don’t know when these changes will be going live, but I hope soon. Especially since I did a Google Search (unintentionally, ironically) for Storming Dawn and some odd things showed up. However, when I search for my own name, I’m happy to see that I’m actually all over. A vast majority of them is reprints of the winners list for the 2011 Blizzard Global Writing Contest, but I’m okay with that. Heck, I’m even in a WoWWiki article. That’s shiny. ๐Ÿ™‚

Derailed

I’ll just say it. Caitlyn had another seizure this week. I really thought we were over this. And I’m sick of this entire ordeal. It seems to be Breath-Holding Spells, but the strange thing is that she’s having postitical periods–AKA periods of lethargy–after each incident. However, this isn’t consistent. In truth, they don’t know what’s going on with her and neither do we.

Before you ask, she’s just fine. She was fine within a few hours. But it looks like we get to do ANOTHER EEG and MRI. Whee. I can barely contain my excitement.

Now, time for a little personal confession. I don’t deal with these incidents well. When Caitlyn’s first seizure happened, it started around the time Mass Effect 3 launched. I was playing that a ton during that time and instead of dealing with the emotions of what was going on with Caitlyn…I focused my emotional energy on that game. And if you’re reading this, you probably know that Mass Effect 3’s ending was…controversial, to say the least. For me, it was emotionally devastating. Because without that focus, both things crashed down upon me like tidal waves and I wasn’t ready.

Well, I’m a creature of habit, so that same thing happened this week. I ended up hyper-focusing on various things…primarily Pony-related. And it was like a lens that just amplified my emotional states. *Sigh* So it’s been a hard week. Though the instigators of these issues were ironically two of the most beautiful MLP:FiM things I’ve ever watched.

I’m not really good at the whole “dealing with emotional states thing.”

Well, either that or I’m stark raving mad.

It’s probably the second.

Writing the Future

I’m still on track for publishing one of my stories at the end of the month, despite the derailment of Caitlyn’s last seizure. Either “Glimmer of Perspective” or “Beyond the Waterfall” will be out on Kindle by the start of September.

Soul of the Scribe is getting a once-over by a friend of mine. She’s studying it and looking for any way to expand the story from 42K to 60K. I have a few ideas playing around in my head. I’m kinda annoyed I’m going to have to work on it again. I want it to beย done. I want people to be enjoying the darn story. But novellas are damn near impossible to publish traditionally.

And I don’t want to self-publish. From what I’ve seen, it’s not worth it.

Dreamer

Okay, that’s pretty much it for this week. But I’ll be continuing my posting about Pony-related videos. I’m sorry folks, but I have come down with a terminal case of Brony. You’ve seen my own posts about it in the past. I’m actually making some tentative plans to get involved into the Brony community, because I like what I see. Before you throw a fit about that, remember there’s always the vocal or crazy minority thatย never represent the whole. What I see is something new…and something that celebrates love and tolerance.

I don’t know about you, but when I look at the state of the world, I think we need some more of that.

So here we go. Have some Love and Tolerance.

You’re going to take it and you’re going to enjoy it, darn you.
Closer (Pony Music Video)

Children of the Night (Original fan-made animation and song)

((By the way, I ended up just crying at the end of it because of how beautiful the song and the animation was. There’s an enormous amount of subtext going on here, but you’d have to know the show to get that. ๐Ÿ˜‰ ))

Okay, that’s it for this week. I had some thoughts about the direction Blizzard is going with World of Warcraft (namely that they’ve just given up on giving the Alliance any meaningful story progression), but that’s for another time.

Good luck and have fun!

-rks

Short Story Madness

I’m somewhat annoyed. My lunch I brought today turned out to be bad. Besides having to spend money on mall food (which is far more expensive than it should be), it throws off the amount of time I have for writing work. You see, my primary writing time is the 45-50 minutes I get on my lunch, excluding walking time to heat food, get to my car, etc.

Anyway, you don’t care about what I’m eating at the moment. You’re here for stories. Well, you, the other person and the five hundred scripts and robots.

One of these days I need to work on getting out there more. But that’s for later.

Short Stories

I’m happy to report that “A Glimmer of Perspective” is up to Version 5.2 and “Beyond the Waterfall” is up to Version 2.1. I think I’m on target for publishing one of them on Kindle by the end of the month.

As for Agents and such, I haven’t made much headway. I’ve got some folks in mind, but it’s a very short and rough list. What’s more important is I need to work on my query letter…but again, I’m somewhat troubled by Scribe being a novella. While I wish I could expand it out to 60K to get it to the lower side of novel…it would be 16K of padding…and that’s just absurd. The only way I see that working is if I make it a duology. One of my friends recommended self-publishing or sending it to a small press. The second option I like…the first…not so much.

Ugh. Part of me just wants to go hide when I’m dealing with this stuff. I’ve had some other ideas though. Like forcing myself to put Soul of the Scribe up on the shelf for a little bit and work on another project. I could rewrite “In the Corridors of Light and Dreams” (it needs to be utterly torn apart) or work on a new project that’s tentatively called “The Last Dreamer.”

Mhr. I’m still waiting for my food and I don’t think well on an empty stomach.

Anyway, I need to stay committed. I’ve done well so far with my editing. But now it’s time to start actually working on the publishing side. And I think I’ll have to force myself to not play a game or something and start the research and the work.

I don’t wanna.

*Heh*

But I need to.

So my goal for next week? To have a query letter done. Either that, or be full on power to get another novel ready for publishing.

Okay, so, I’ve been ending each post with some random YouTube video I like lately. I’ve found that I enjoy doing this. And I hope the two of you humans and the 500 of you machines enjoy it too.

Anyway, I hope to have something good for you folks next week. And maybe, I’ll find a way to bring some more people around. ๐Ÿ™‚

Good luck and have fun!

-rks

((Oh yeah, and I did eventually get my food))

Initiating Launch Sequence

It’s been an eventful week.

But it’s been eventful in a quiet sort of way.

((Huh, that’s a great start of a short story. I’ll need to remember that.))

Things have become difficult as of late at work. Because of various reasons, I won’t go into specifics. But someone I respect and trust has actually resigned and for the same reasons I’ve been having trouble. I feel validated by this for some reason. I guess I’ve always wondered if it’s actually been my own attitude and negative thoughts…if they’ve been coloring my perspective. Looks like the answer is no.

While this is the source of my struggles at the moment, I don’t think it’s a good idea to speak about them at length. I’ve made that mistake in the past and I do not intend to make it again.

However, I currently believe that it may be a ploy to distract me from my newfound goals.

And what goals are these, praytell?

  1. I will be published by the end of the month.
  2. I will get an Agent within two months.
  3. I will have a synopsis and query letter for Soul of the Scribe by the end of the month.

Madness you say?

Probably. Never stopped me before.

I’m going to publish on Kindle first of all. I plan to publish one of my short stories. It will either be “A Glimmer of Perspective” or “Beyond the Waterfall.” I just need to revise them up to snuff before I decide which one. Heck, I might do both. Who knows?

I’m sick of waiting. I’m sick of not doing anything. So I’m setting serious goals. I’m going to make this happen.

In the same vein, I’m happy to announce that Soul of the Scribe is DONE. I finished my final readthrough of the story last week and I finished Laura’s editing notes a day later. That’s when this stuff begun. I now have constant reminders and a checklist of my goals for writing.

The best part of this is the simple fact that I finally have a real goal. Since I got my promotion at work, I’ve felt listless and without direction. I’m one of those people who always need something to strive for. Now, I have a target. And when I get set on something, nothing can stand in my way. I’m kinda stubborn like that.

I’m actually taking the time from working on “Waterfall” to do this. Lately, I’ve been crushing my blog in at the last moment on Sunday night during work.

So what does this mean for the future?

It means I’m going to make this happen.

One way or another, I’m going to get published.

I will FINALLY have my work out there.

And hopefully, some enormous publisher will fall in love with my writing, offer me half a million dollars in advance, and maybe get to do what I love full time.

What?

Hey, I never said I dreamt small.

Let’s see…how about something cheerful and smiley for you folks tonight?

 

Saddle up folks. It’s going to be a wild ride.

Good luck and have fun!

-rks